[Even if it's still difficult to get over his own self-conception to accept what's being said as true... The tenderness of Ray's language, both in body and verbiage, gets Winston to let out something of an aching, lovestruck gasp. And he lets himself settle into this moment, relaxing against Ray, sinking deeper into the bed, into something soft and warm and comforting. Trying to set those worries aside.]
Yeah... I think I've gotten better about it since... since we met. It's just... a learning process, getting over it.
[He purses his lips in thought.]
...you weren't there to see it, but... a long while ago, when I thought I was all alone in a world of chaos, something happened that... helped move me towards having a better perspective on myself.
[Winston presses his cheek against Ray's chest, eyes turned aside as he searches his thoughts and recalls this pivotal moment.]
It was... a disaster. Everything was falling apart around me. Nothing made sense anymore. It all seemed so... hopeless. I thought, "there's no way I can fix this, I'm the weak link, I can't measure up to the rest of them"- ...and that's when somebody approached me- told me that didn't matter, that I could find a way to get through it if I tried. And with Janine and Slimer backing me up, I did. He was right.
[Slowly, he cranes his neck up to look Ray square in the eyes.]
[The gravity quickly fades from Winston's expression, a smile finally returning to his face after what felt like an eternity of its absence.]
Alright- I'll admit, it wasn't the Einstein. It was... you remember how the sandman brought everyone's dreams to life? That was it. Egon was dreaming of him, and there he was. ...in case you're wondering, after the pep talk, he walked off reciting E=mc² to himself for some reason.
Be honest with me, though: is that any weirder than what we see on an average job?
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Yeah... I think I've gotten better about it since... since we met. It's just... a learning process, getting over it.
[He purses his lips in thought.]
...you weren't there to see it, but... a long while ago, when I thought I was all alone in a world of chaos, something happened that... helped move me towards having a better perspective on myself.
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You wanna tell me what happened? Maybe it can remind you what a great person you are.
[He has no idea if the story will actually show him that but it's fine.]
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It was... a disaster. Everything was falling apart around me. Nothing made sense anymore. It all seemed so... hopeless. I thought, "there's no way I can fix this, I'm the weak link, I can't measure up to the rest of them"- ...and that's when somebody approached me- told me that didn't matter, that I could find a way to get through it if I tried. And with Janine and Slimer backing me up, I did. He was right.
[Slowly, he cranes his neck up to look Ray square in the eyes.]
...that man? Was Albert Einstein.
late but i gotta bc i gotta have ray respond
[Ray's grip on Winston loosens as a look of confusion grows on his face.]
That was an inspirational story but are you joking or...?
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Alright- I'll admit, it wasn't the Einstein. It was... you remember how the sandman brought everyone's dreams to life? That was it. Egon was dreaming of him, and there he was. ...in case you're wondering, after the pep talk, he walked off reciting E=mc² to himself for some reason.
Be honest with me, though: is that any weirder than what we see on an average job?